Monday, November 23, 2009

ugly love

love love love sick about this word, LOVE LOVE LOVE. today at my office i get a kad jemputan from my member. and suddenly someone ask me! hey when is your turn? oh hell ya fuck them huhuhu just because i'm 25 you think its tooooooooooo late for me to get marride! oh noooooo so i answer her hey its not easy to get married. you think everything gone be just like fairytale huh? naaaaa just like what one of my friend said "just because we brown up with fairytale story with a good happy ending and our life gonna turn just like that...WRONG don't just see the beauty and the bright side of love but you must put in your head about the ugly of love and the bad side of it which all of us well have a consequences happen in our future ". So when you think about the ugly part of love, without your conscious you will prepare yourself for the future, and if anything bad happen you are ready to face it because you are aware of it from the beginning. "errr hehehe ok ka ayat sa?" For me a girl should not trowing herself into only the world of LOVE. Which only dreaming ohh meet a guy, a cute guy, dating, married, having a kids, stoking husband so they don't cheat on me, orrrrrrr etc... come on girls you need a life, i mean you should have a life other then all those kind of things. u Should have your own dream, you should have your goal, something you want to achive in your life. Something you want to prove it.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

masih lemah lagi. masih nda sihat huhuhuh :( arggggggggggggggggggggggggg zahir dan batin sakit ni tau, sensaranyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Friday, November 20, 2009

no mood

huhuh 2 minggu sdh hidup nda teratur nie, lemah2 badan ja, mcm semua teda mood aku mau buat, tiada semangat, semangat ku yang hilang entah pegi kemana....aku memerlukan pemangkin kekeek, aiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii lemah badan. macam mana la mau cari nie. di mana la semangat aku bertapuk ni a.....hari ni aku mc plak, kena gastrik huhuh sudah la mau diet tgk kena gastrik alahai hancur program. maybe aku pg brunei time raya haji huhhuhu sedihnya aku nda dpt beraya d sini. badan lemah mcm malas mau outstation. arggggg benci nya mcm ni... : (

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Build Self Confidence - wikiHow

Build Self Confidence - wikiHow

Recognize your insecurities. What does that voice in the back of your mind say? What makes you ashamed of yourself? This could be anything from acne, to regrets, your weight, or friends at school. Whatever is making you feel unworthy, ashamed, or inferior, identify it, give it a name, and write it down.

Don't view yourself as inferior to others. Don't walk around with the conscious mindset that others are better or more qualified than you, whether it's related to work, school, or just socializing. To a certain degree, it's good to walk around with a feeling of superiority. However, don't take this too far, or you'll come across as a jerk.

Talk about it with friends and loved ones. Wear it on your sleeve. Each day you should chip away at it; wear it down. There's no quick fix. Get to the root of the problem; focus on it and understand that you need to resolve each issue before you can move on.

Remember that no one is perfect. Even the most confident people have insecurities. At some point in any of our lives, we may feel we lack something. That is reality. Learn that life is full of bumps down the road.


Identify your successes. Everyone is good at something, so discover the things at which you excel, then focus on your talents. Give yourself permission to take pride in them. Give yourself credit for your successes. Inferiority is a state of mind in which you've declared yourself a victim. Do not allow yourself to be victimized. Express yourself, whether it's through art, music, writing, etc. Find something you enjoy. Everyone is born with talents and strengths. You can develop and excel in yours. If it's difficult to name two or three things you have some ability in or just plain love to do, think about things others do that you would like to do too and take some lessons or join an enthusiasts club. When you're following your passion, not only will it have a therapeutic effect, but you'll feel unique and accomplished, all of which can help build your self confidence. Plus, adding a variety of interests to your life will not only make you more confident, but it will increase your chances of meeting compatible friends!

Be thankful for what you have. A lot of the times, at the root of insecurity and lack of confidence is a feeling of not having enough of something, whether it's emotional validation, good luck, money, etc. By acknowledging and appreciating what you do have, you can combat the feeling of being incomplete and unsatisfied. Finding that inner peace will do wonders for your confidence.

Be Positive, even if you don't feel positive. Avoid self-pity, or the pity and sympathy of others. Never allow others to make you feel inferior--they can only do so if you let them. If you continue to loathe and belittle yourself, others are going to do and believe likewise. Instead, speak positively about yourself, about your future, and about your progress. Do not be afraid to project your strengths and qualities to others. By doing so, you reinforce those ideas in your mind and encourage your growth in a positive direction.

Accept compliments gracefully. Don't roll your eyes and say, "Yeah, right," or shrug it off. Take it to heart and respond positively ("Thank you" and a smile works well).

Look in the mirror and smile. Studies surrounding what's called the "facial feedback theory" suggest that the expressions on your face can actually encourage your brain to register certain emotions. So by looking in the mirror and smiling every day, you might feel happier with yourself and more confident in the long run. It also helps to talk to yourself in the mirror. It helps your speaking skills.

Fake it. Along the same lines of smiling to make yourself feel happy, acting confident might actually make you believe it. Pretend you're a completely confident version of you; go through the motions and see how you feel

Stick to your principles. It might be tough, but if you don't have something you can believe in, you don't have anything. If you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything. No matter what's happened in your life, you can always lay claim to the fact that from this day forward, you've followed your principles to the best of your ability.

Help others. When you know you're kind to the people around you, and are making a positive difference in other people's lives (even if it's just being kinder to the person who serves you coffee in the morning), you'll know that you are a positive force in the world--which will boost your self confidence. Go volunteer twice a month at an elementary school. Bake something for your neighbor for no reason. Confidence that you have earned is the most long-lasting.

Don't Care What Other People Think You shouldn't care about what other people will think or are going to think because what's important is that you are fine with yourself and if you're fine with yourself, others will be fine with you!

Remember If someone insults you and puts you down, just remember,that they are not perfect either.

Look at yourself in the mirror and list all of the positive qualities that you have. Doing this every day can help to build a better self-view of yourself.

Work hard- Keep on doing your work honestly. Have a target in your life.Focus on it. Do anything to reach that target and see how that inner feeling of confidence comes to you.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

peka la dgn org lain ok

kenapa la ada manusia macam ni...d jadi kan cerita,aku ada satu org member ni, kiranya aku kenal lama la jg dr tahun 2004 smpi la skrg.aku rasa pelik la dengan dia nie, dia terlalu kasar sehingga menyinggung perasaan org lain. maknanya perasaan aku laaaa. seingat aku, selama aku kenal dgn dia nie aku tidak la pernah meninggi suara dan marah2 xtentu pasal. kalau dia tanya aku, tegur aku, aku jawab baik2. tp bila aku tegur dia, mak aiii consider kurang ajar jg la dia nie. menengking, marah2 xtentu pasal padahal, aku cuma bertanya. sakit jg la hati layan dia nie. sebelum2 ni aku buat dont know jak, tapi lama2 semakin menjadi perangai dia, menengking aku sesuka hati depan org. entah kenapa la perangai dia mcm nie, apa pun aku berdoa jg la moga2 dia sedar diri dia dan cepat betulkan perangai dia yg buruk ni. peka2 la sikit dgn keadaan sekeliling ko, kalau bercakap fikir la perasaan org lain. aku sure mak bapa ko nda pernah ajar ko bercakap menengking org sesuka hati apa tah lagi kwn ko sendiri. aku harap jg ko baca apa aku tulis nie, boleh jg ko berubah. org bilang biar miskin yang penting budi bahasa. kalau kita sikap kurang ajar nda hormat org lain kita nda kan kemana.


Sunday, October 11, 2009

dark time


kindda of funny, i just wrote a blog when i'm stress :), yeah i am stress its about a week feeling depress, seems like its wont go away... i don't have a mood for anything, i feel myself useless, empty and alone. sick no money lots of works need to be done LOL kronik2 heheheh. i dont feel my soul in my body anymore...oh...where is my soul, come back to me plz..i'm losing you..i feel the tears drop down from my eyes...i'm crying a blood huhuhu, i feel the poison in my heart...its broken, its hurt...i got nothing in this life....

Saturday, September 26, 2009

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alamak akhirnya holiday abis.............arrrgggg mcm mls pegi keja..hope la everything gonna b ok...nda kena marah2 lg..aduh....hope semua berjalan lancar tanpa sebarang tekanan....hope i found Big "L" heheh, ok my mom sound2 sdh aduh kena marah lagi, aku dinasihati untuk memikirkan masa hadapan hahaha alamakkkkkkkkkkkkk i nver think about my future la, ok wat i can say i feel tired wit the style of my life, its doesnt mean i'm sick of this life...oh nooooooooooo :)